nagtatanong

extacy...

2006-02-27T09:30:00.000+08:00

when i was a little kid...

i fell from a tree...

but i managed to hold on to a branch.

i was up there...

for a long lime...

and waited...

the silence...

the pain in my arms...

the blood pumping in my ears...

then i felll...

i couldn't remember what happened when...

i hit the ground...

all i could remember was...

the agony of...

holding on...

and...

the wonderful feeling of...

letting go...

think...

2006-02-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

"when your feelings get too strong for someone,
it is always wise to stop for a while
and give your heart time to breath,
it is time to use your mind to weigh the situation

based on reason...

more than emotions"

goodbye...

2006-01-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

Didn't mean to hurt you badly
Don't think that I am fooling around with you
So sorry for the time you've wasted on me
So sorry for the things that you went through
But I know that the problem's within me
You're so nice but your love don't deserve me
Or maybe I'm just so scared to fall in love again

I can still remember the days
So many times, I've been hurt
So much trust I put on a relationship
So much suffering I got and the pain still remain
Know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Don't say goodbye
Don't say goodbye
I need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Now, I know I wasn't thinking before
That's why I'm always ending up with Ms. Wrong
Learning from the past, don't wanna make a mistake
You could be Ms. Right or could be a fake
You know I like you but I don't wanna take the risk
So confused and I don't know how to deal with it
Need some time for awhile before I give my heart away

Juana

i love you, goodbye

2005-12-29T18:20:00.000+08:00

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

y cnt dis b luv...?

2005-12-03T07:58:00.000+08:00

Oh here it comes
That funny feeling again winding me up inside
Every time we touch
Hey I don’t know
Oh, tell me where to begin cause I never ever
Felt so much

And I can’t recall any love at all
Baby this blows ‘em all away


It’s got what it takes
So tell me why can’t this be love?
Straight from my heart
Oh, tell me why can’t this be love?

I tell myself
Hey only fools rush in an only time will tell
If we stand the test of time
All I know
You’ve got to run to win and I’ll be damned if
I’ll get hung up on the line

It's got what it takes
So tell me why can't this be love
You want it straight from the heart 
Oh tell me why can't this be love

Tell me why can’t this be love
Got to know why can’t this be love
I wanna know why can’t this be love

Van Halen

o...

2005-11-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

isang buong araw nanaman ang lumipas at lilipis pa ulet na wala kang ibang gagawin at magagawa kung hindi ang mag-isip at tumungo.
pagod na pagod ka na sa kakatanggap ng problemang hindi mo naman ginustong maging sa'yo.
wala ka namang magagawa kung hindi saluhin lahat ng 'to.
iniisip mo kung may saysay pa ba ang buhay mo dahil lahat ng ginagawa mo eh, kung hindi para sa iba, eh hindi para sa'yo. ang gulo no?
sana lang, matapos na ang lahat ng 'to...
para masarili mo na ang inangkin nilang mundo...

pagmumunimuni...

2005-11-15T10:17:00.000+08:00

naranasan mo na bang mapagod?
as in ung saobrang pagod na pagod ka na?
pagod sa pag-aaral...
pagod sa trabaho...
pagod sa pamilya...
pagod sa kaibigan...
pagod sa ka-ibigan (kahit wala naman)...
pagod sa buhay....
pagod sa lahat...?
nakakainis kasing isipin na sa dinami dami ng ginagawa mo...
parang walang nangyayari sa buhay mo....
oo, masaya ka sa ginagawa mo, pero sapat na ba yon para magpatuloy ka?
hay, minsan nga, parang gusto ko na lang maglaho bigla...
o kaya, ihinto ang oras, kahit isang buong araw lang,
isang buong araw lang na wala kang gagawin, o kahit na, isang buong araw na wala kang iisipin....
minsan kasi kahit hindi ka gumagawa, ung mag-isip lang nakakapagod na...
kaya manisan, kapag wala kang magawa, nakaka-inis pang magmuni-muni eh...

more than doing it, sometimes, it is more tiring thinking about it, i may not be the hands untying the rope, but i'm the mind thinking how the hands will do it...

KALEIDOSCOPE WORLD

2005-11-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most

Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

thoughts 3...

2005-11-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

NEVER EXPLAIN! Your friends woun't need it and your enemies won't believe you anyway...

thoughts 2...

2005-11-04T12:22:00.000+08:00

sometimes being simple is being beautiful and great...

when everybody is super, no one is...

thoughts...

2005-11-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

despite all the good things you've done for other people, there will come a time when no one will even say thank you...

the truth...

2005-11-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

it had been a while sinee the last time i wrote,
for one reason or another,
i had either no time to write and/or too occupied by things i myself am not in favor of...

six months have past since i started to write, for a simple reason of having an avenue to ask questions that i rarely would ask...

but today, i'am writing for a reason that i never thought i would had...

it's just that i'm too tired, very tired of keeping all of these to myself...

feelings that only i and God knows...

feelings that i hope would be heard andd listened too...

i hope...

kaya ko pa ba...???

2005-08-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

sa dinami dami ng mga ginagawa ko sa buhay kong ito...
halos hindi na magkasya ang 24 oras sa lahat ng binubuno...

1 oras sa pagaayos bago umalis ng bahay...
3 oras and byahe paalis at pauwi sa bahay...
6 na oras sa klase...
2 oras pa sa pag-aaral bukod sa klase...
4 na oras sa council...
2 oras sa pagkain...

sa anim na oras na natitira
ang tanong ko ay...

saan ko pa ipapasok ang...

kaibigan...
pamilya...
gimmick...
pahinga at tulog...

tapos...
tatanungin mo ako kung bakit wala akong girlfriend???
ikaw kaya sa lugar ko...

bakit...?

2005-05-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

bakit sa dinami dami nang tao, ako pa...?
bakit ako pa ang naging ako?
pwede namang maging sya ako...
bakit ba ako ang nasa posisyon ko ngayon...?
pwede namang sya...

bakit ako na lang ang palaging naiiwanan?
palaging hindi nasasabihan...
palaging huli sa usapan?

bakit kapag sila, malakas sa akin,
ako lang ba ang hindi malakas sa kanila?

bkit ba ako ang naiipit sa kalagayang ito?
kung bakit naman kasi pinasok ko pa ito?
pwede naman akong huminde noong una pa lang...
bakit ako pumayag?

bakit kapag pag-ibig na ang pinag-uusapan,
marami at magaling akong magbigay ng payo,
pero hindi ko naman masabi ang sarili kong kwento?

bakit ako?

bakit...?

nakakapagpabagabag... ikalawang yugto...

2005-05-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

napakahirap maghintay sa wala...
napakahirap umalis ng walang pupuntahan...
napakahirap magbigay ng walang tatanggap...
napakahirap magsalita ng walang kausap...
napakahirap mag-alala kung wala ka namang aalalahanin...

sabi nila, pag-ibig daw and pinakamagandang regalo na pwede mong ibigay o tanggapin...
pero bakit ako, ang dami-dami kong pagmamahal na maaaring ibigay, pero...
wala namang may gustong tumanggap...

bakit ganoon...?

nakakapagpabagabag...

2005-05-29T12:37:00.000+08:00

may mga tanong na hindi mo malaman kung kailangan bang sagutin,
o kung may kasagutan pa ba dito,
minsan, napapagod na akong mag-isip at nagtatanong na lang kung... kailangan ko pa bang mag-isisp?
sa buhay na ito, napakaraming katanungan,
heto ang isa:

why do we keep on destroying the things that we love...?

Itutuloy...

paalam...

2005-05-29T12:03:00.000+08:00

noong nakaraang linggo lang,
nakita ko pa siya sa harapan ng ab building,
noong nakaraang linggo lang,
naglolokohan pa kami at nagtatawanan,
noong nakaraang linggo lang.

noong nakaraang linggo lang,
ayaw nya akong papasukin,
noong nakaraang linggo lang,
inaway nya ako dahil sa suot kong tsinelas,
noong nakaraang linggo lang.

noong nakaraang linggo lang,
nakita ko pa siya at ako'y nagpaalam,
noong nakaraang linggo lang,
buhay pa siya, ngunit,
hanggang noong nakaraang linggo lang...

paalam manong solis...

byahe...

2005-05-27T11:47:00.000+08:00

isng byahe ng buhay ang aking kinagisnan sa pagmulat ng aking mata,
isang panibagong byahe na tatahaking mag-isa,
isang bagong byahe na walang kasiguraduhan ang patutunguhan,
isang byaheng maaaring hindi na maulit muli.

kailan magtatapos ang byaheng ito?
kailan mararating ang dulo ng daan?
kailan malalaman ang talagang patutunguhan?
kailan makikilala ang taong naghihintay sa dulo ng daan?

kailan...?

panimula...

2005-05-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

sa simula pa lang ay nagtatanong na,
matatapos ba ng walang problema,
duda ang unang pumasok sa isipan,
makakaya kayang ito ay wakasan?
pinasok ng lakas loob,
makalabas kaya ng walang kutob?
isang bagay lang ang ngayon ay sigurado,
sa panimulang ito'y kasama ko kayo...